I have mentioned previously that I didn’t get birthday and Christmas presents every year as a child. My mother was an old-fashioned orthodox and stuck by the rules. One of the gifts I did get however was this typewriter, after a lot of pressure from little me. The guitar was not forth-coming. I banged on and on about wanting a writing machine.
And we got one. I can’t recall where from.
I worked away on it for a few years from the age of ten to eighteen. Churning out poetry, songs, lots of letters for Amnesty, Greenpeace, BUAV, to distant people. Then it got forgotten. I threw away all my written work, including the poems I had won competitions with as a young dark romantic. My era of being precocious, as some of my teachers often called me, had gone.
It was simple. There was no choice. After a long time of little work someone needed to bring in the bread. So I got a full time job, ditching the idea of college to do English or maybe Art, and worked full-time for a few years.
In that time I did keep on with the acrylics and drawings, churning out stuff people wanted – like a painting of the photograph they took of their holiday place, religious iconography, copies of The Last Supper.
Then I decided to fuck the tedious job with the civil service and go do a degree. Typically I gave myself two options – community work or art and design (textiles). I went for the former. The place I lived in was no longer a world textiles centre but a decaying region all around me. It looked like there was work to be done with people.
Is there always an excuse to not write? Or do we sometimes prioritise other things out of duty, compassion and solidarity. And do we come to realise eventually that the original idea, way or thought was perhaps the best one. Can we do both. Can we achieve working class solidarity, social humanism – through words.
I stand at the same crossroads. But this time, the two will be together. People and Art. Rights and Words. This time I do not ditch the stories in me. And neither should any other working class person. Don’t let art be a bourgeoisie enclave. Write the way you want to. Make it from the heart and soul. Write for you and your people.
Looking through papers.
Every payslip, every piece of employment information is filed.
Thirty years it’s been.
A large archive of working life.
Every now and then it all changes, as it has over the last few months. The change has been difficult and enforced and has led to a desire to be far from the madding crowd. Far from an oppressive and narrow world.
In amongst the work history there was an appraisal from the 1990’s. The manager still sends Christmas cards without an address for return.
It was a disability rights organisation.
Jelica is an anti-oppressive practitioner. She is an independent thinker and makes other people ‘sit up and think again’.
Jelica has the ability to ask the most challenging questions in a non-threatening, constructive and enquiring manner’